Two weeks ago I had a really good friend pass away. It was a really bad week. I felt so depressed and sick of being "not home." Because while his funeral occurred, I was hours and hours and hours away.
Things got better. People made me feel at home. I felt happy.
Then... Last monday.
There was a girl at my school who took her own life. I did not know the girl. I had no reason to be sad, right? Wrong. Very wrong.
The amount of stories that I have heard over her and how great she was brought the sorrow feelings to my mind. Why did I not introduce myself? Could I have prevented this? Etc.
In memorial, I decided it would be best to go purchase some candles and flowers (and a cross) and stick them beside the American flag to honor the girl.
But it still hurts.
It reminds me of when I tried to take my own life. When I failed. What would have happened if I failed to save myself from the grim reaper?
I don't know.
There are just a lot of thoughts in my mind right now.
If you guys could say prayers or keep in thought myself, Malachi, his family and close ones, Morgan, her family and close ones, then I would really appreciate it.
As for now I decided to dedicate this set to those passing way too soon. To those who live in a dark corner trapped in sorrow. To those still fighting. To those who survived the fight. To you, whoever reads this.
Live on.
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